Post by reddazes on Sept 12, 2012 2:56:28 GMT -5
It's time for the old man to go to the Bridge. This is probably the hardest decision I have ever had to make in my life, but it is just unfair to him to ask him to keep going like this. The Beau and I have been up all night talking about it, and Kodo has been with us. His back legs quit working today, he can only stand for maybe a few minutes at a time. For the last few days he has been eating great, but everything has been going straight through him and he still keeps losing weight. Tonight there was a few specks of blood in his stool.
When we let him out tonight he played with us for a little while, tried to stash all his favorite toys, gave us both cuddles and love. Taking frequent long breaks to rest in between, and now he is curled up in the fuzzy blanket next to my feet. I laid down with him for an hour or so and talked with him about Rainbow Bridge... He just cuddled into my arm and licked me and fell asleep. I think he is ready to go, he just keeps trying to hang on because he loves us. He lays down and goes absolutely still, then shakes and shudders so violently it almost looks painful, and forces himself back up to take a few more steps.
He has lost so much weight at this point he doesn't even resemble the rolly-polly ferret I brought home all those years ago, his body is actually starting to eat muscle to sustain itself at this point. He is literally wasting away.
So The Beau and I have decided we have done all we can to make him comfortable and if he doesn't go to the Bridge tonight on his own, we are going to help him along in the morning. It's unfair to him, and he deserves the rest after fighting so long. I think he'd want to go while he is still Kodo, before he just can't anymore.
I've never been this heartbroken. Ludo was my soul mate, my angel in Ferret skin. But Kodo has been my center, my rock, the one thing I have been able to depend on day in and day out for nearly 4 years. I can always count on him to be the one face peeking out of the cage to wish me good morning, always count on him to come lick tears from my face when I am sad and then goof off just to make me feel better.
I don't know what I am going to do without him. But I know he has Ludo waiting for him at the Bridge...and I know I will see him again someday. It's just hard to say goodbye, he is such a little fighter. I don't want him to have to fight this fight anymore. I want him to be happy, be at peace, not hurt or feel sick or have such a hard time getting around that he messes himself and feels ashamed.
I know it's the right thing. But I can't help but feel I will always think I could have done more. I know he is old He was at LEAST 4 when we got him, so he is at the very least 8 years old. *sigh* ..I'm sorry for rambling... my heart is breaking and I just wish there was another way.
Please keep Kodo and us in your thoughts today. Send up some prayers to the Bridge.
When we let him out tonight he played with us for a little while, tried to stash all his favorite toys, gave us both cuddles and love. Taking frequent long breaks to rest in between, and now he is curled up in the fuzzy blanket next to my feet. I laid down with him for an hour or so and talked with him about Rainbow Bridge... He just cuddled into my arm and licked me and fell asleep. I think he is ready to go, he just keeps trying to hang on because he loves us. He lays down and goes absolutely still, then shakes and shudders so violently it almost looks painful, and forces himself back up to take a few more steps.
He has lost so much weight at this point he doesn't even resemble the rolly-polly ferret I brought home all those years ago, his body is actually starting to eat muscle to sustain itself at this point. He is literally wasting away.
So The Beau and I have decided we have done all we can to make him comfortable and if he doesn't go to the Bridge tonight on his own, we are going to help him along in the morning. It's unfair to him, and he deserves the rest after fighting so long. I think he'd want to go while he is still Kodo, before he just can't anymore.
I've never been this heartbroken. Ludo was my soul mate, my angel in Ferret skin. But Kodo has been my center, my rock, the one thing I have been able to depend on day in and day out for nearly 4 years. I can always count on him to be the one face peeking out of the cage to wish me good morning, always count on him to come lick tears from my face when I am sad and then goof off just to make me feel better.
I don't know what I am going to do without him. But I know he has Ludo waiting for him at the Bridge...and I know I will see him again someday. It's just hard to say goodbye, he is such a little fighter. I don't want him to have to fight this fight anymore. I want him to be happy, be at peace, not hurt or feel sick or have such a hard time getting around that he messes himself and feels ashamed.
I know it's the right thing. But I can't help but feel I will always think I could have done more. I know he is old He was at LEAST 4 when we got him, so he is at the very least 8 years old. *sigh* ..I'm sorry for rambling... my heart is breaking and I just wish there was another way.
Please keep Kodo and us in your thoughts today. Send up some prayers to the Bridge.