Dealing with Greif - Loosing Lokys

[rememberinglokys]

Six months ago we brought into our home the second of our four ferret babies. Lokys was everything you could want in a pet. He was patient and sweet. Love to snuggle and go on car rides. He was my love. Although he loved his daddy, he was a momma’s boy, to the core. And he brought so much joy into my life.

Several weeks ago he started to show signs of not feeling well. And in my heart I knew he had an obstruction. We took in to the emergency vet where they confirmed our worst fear. She said he seemed bright and active and although he wasn’t pooped “normal” he was pooping and it appeared to be a partial obstruction. So she asked us to keep and eye on him and keep him separated so we could make sure he was eating and drinking, continued to poop and not vomit. For three days and nights I kept vigil over him and he seemed to be doing well. After that he returned to his funny, loving and feisty self.

Until this Thursday. Dad said he played all day and seemed good. Enjoying his playmates and eat and drank normally. About and hour and a half before I had gotten home he went to take a nap. I got home and noticed a poop that didn’t look good. So I go to look at him and it’s obvious he’s not feeling well.

Fast forward a few hours and his paw pads are bright pink, so is the skin around his eyes and his face. He’s not acting as though he’s in pain but extremely lethargic. But he starts to vomit and I know it’s time. We rush him to the vet and during the drive he goes downhill. The vet tells us he’s bleeding into his body and we only have one choise. He’s suffering and I can not allow this.

We say our goodbyes as I am hysterical while they are taking him away. The pain I feel is so intense I cry the entire night while holding his blanket and wearing his collar as a bracelet. I spend yesterday in a cloud of fog, still carrying his blanket and wearing his collar. I’m grieving. I know this. My pain is unbearable but I know we did the right thing. Lokys was hurting and no matter how much I loved him, I needed to let him go.

Today, I’m not crying as much, but I still can not get myself to put down his blanket. And I’ll conit To wear his collar, as a remembrance of the sweet angel that touched my heart so deeply. Tears down my cheeks as I go through all the memories on my phone. But, my heart is full. This love is so great and although his life was short he made a difference to us.

I know this will take time to heal and I know I’ll never fully recover but I know these tears of sadness will become tears of happiness at the time I did have with him. And his memory will be a light that shines so bright in my life.

Lokys, mommy loves you. I wish you so much joy and happiness, wherever you are. Please know we loved you. Heart and soul. We will never forget the joy you brought to us. We hope you feel the love we have for you.

[unclejoe]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. I don't know what it is about ferrets that they just move right into your heart and take over. And when they're gone, they leave such a hole...
Dook in Peace Lokys.

[Charlie]

Oh no. So very sorry for your loss. He will be at Rainbow Bridge with no pain and bouncing around and dooking to his heart's content until you meet again.

[bandit]

I am so very sorry for your loss. May God provide you with comfort.

On July 13th our rescue ferret Becky passed, we adopted her on July 2nd. It was such a short time with her, but she touched my heart deeply as well. I am still sleeping with her blanket, and cry over her almost every day.

I make memory shadow boxes to always remember my fuzzies that have crossed the rainbow bridge. I am almost done with Becky's box. It's been incredibly hard. I will have 6 shadow boxes hanging on my wall.

Hugs. I wish I could say something to make you feel better. God bless.

[rememberinglokys]

Thank you all for your sweet words. It’s so heartwarming to hear others who understand the love these lil guys give you and what it means to loose one of them.

Lokys was so special to me. He will always be with me. And one day, I know we will be reunited.

[abbeytheferret6]

Dook in Peace the sweetest Lokys
They become just like our children and the loss feels overwhelming at times. But I hope your sorrow will eventually turn to smiles when you think of him.

[lyles]

That's so sad, it hurts so much to lose our fur babbies, but at least he was happy in the time you two shared together.

[rememberinglokys]

Thank you again everyone. It’s been so helpful reading your messages and hearing your experiences.

I’m enjoying his pictures and videos today and smiling a little more than crying. Continuing to keep his memory alive.

He was such a wonderful little boy. A bright light.

Thank you for being there for me. I will always be grateful for the members of this site and will be sure to support anyone in need. It’s a great community.

[unclejoe]

I hope you continue to be an active member. And I hope that you are able to find peace through memories. I've been through that loss some 20 times in only 11 years. It's so helpful to have the support of fellow ferrents.

[rememberinglokys]

It’s so true that having people to talk to about the love and loss is extremely comforting. Only a ferrant knows the joy these lil ones bring to your world.

I hope I can offer the same support to others as I’ve received in just a short time.

Love to all!

[Sherry]

I am so so sorry for your loss I lost one to an obstruction as well. Due to his age/illness he'd never have survived the surgery.

[rememberinglokys]

Our vet felt due to X-rays that it wasn’t rubber or metal or anything like that and because he was eating, drinking, pooping, urinating and being active we were fine to take him home and watch him. He was great for two weeks, but crashed unexpectedly. And it was so severe that he was already bleeding inside his body. And instead of putting him through anymore suffering, putting him to sleep was the best thing for him. It was just so difficult because he was doing so well.

And he was such a momma’s boy. He snuggled with me on the couch and slept in my arms like a baby. We would go on car rides together and he loved his little sling.

Thank you so much for your kind words. His light was so bright. He touched everyone who knew him. I miss him so much and even today my greif seems so huge that it hovers over me. I cry because I miss him so and laugh through my tears when I think about all the wonderful memories we had with him. He was so young and taken too soon. My heart aches to hold him and hear his little dooks.

Lucky his playmates are doing well. They looked for him for a few days but we got some RR and have been religiously giving it to them and they are playing a lot more and eating well. We’ve been showering them with love and comforting them when they seem a little down.

Having them to love on helps for sure. Thank you again for for kind words.