Post by reddazes on Jan 27, 2013 16:06:37 GMT -5
I've been pretty quiet for the last couple months. Life has been one landslide after another, and my computer is on the fritz so it's been hard to keep up with any online worlds.
We had to put Bella down on Thursday, the medicine was no longer helping with her adrenal. She was constantly making noises like she was in pain, super lethargic, and on Thursday her stool was all black and tarry. She just had no more fight left in her, you could tell. After Kodo went she just gave up, Watson and Panda couldn't pull her out of it. Bella and Kodo were too close to last long without one another.
I feel like Kodo was sent to us to ultimately teach us the lesson of when to let go. We were lucky with him, in that he was a fighter and even at the very end when he had nothing left, he was still Kodo. Still happy Kodo. But I couldn't put Bella through that, the energy that made Bella herself was already fading.
It's been a rough week, I haven't had time to sit down and really let it hit me yet, I've been working long days all week... even had to go into work just an hour after we put her down. My heart is broken, but I'm still to numb to feel much.... *sigh*
I just wanted to give an update. When I get more time to sit at a computer and think I'll put together a proper memorial for her... she deserves it and it will be a good closure for me.
Right now, my coworker is dragging me over to her house to make jam and to make me feel better. And Watson and Panda are going to come with and play with her two foozles... So hopefully it will be a day of smiles amidst all this sadness.
We had to put Bella down on Thursday, the medicine was no longer helping with her adrenal. She was constantly making noises like she was in pain, super lethargic, and on Thursday her stool was all black and tarry. She just had no more fight left in her, you could tell. After Kodo went she just gave up, Watson and Panda couldn't pull her out of it. Bella and Kodo were too close to last long without one another.
I feel like Kodo was sent to us to ultimately teach us the lesson of when to let go. We were lucky with him, in that he was a fighter and even at the very end when he had nothing left, he was still Kodo. Still happy Kodo. But I couldn't put Bella through that, the energy that made Bella herself was already fading.
It's been a rough week, I haven't had time to sit down and really let it hit me yet, I've been working long days all week... even had to go into work just an hour after we put her down. My heart is broken, but I'm still to numb to feel much.... *sigh*
I just wanted to give an update. When I get more time to sit at a computer and think I'll put together a proper memorial for her... she deserves it and it will be a good closure for me.
Right now, my coworker is dragging me over to her house to make jam and to make me feel better. And Watson and Panda are going to come with and play with her two foozles... So hopefully it will be a day of smiles amidst all this sadness.