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Post by Deleted on Nov 15, 2011 16:15:24 GMT -5
Another boy lost to adrenal. I just don't know what to do. I stayed up with him all night. Listening to him cry and be in pain, trying to comfort him as best I could. We snuggled and sat in hot water half the night. It helped alleviate some of his pain but not enough to matter. He made it through the night and we went to the vets this morning...
He hurt so much and there was nothing I could do for him, and by the time we got to the vet there was nothing they could do for him either. I'm passed the emotional stage and now I'm just drained. I feel dead inside...
Huck pulled me through the one of the hardest times in my life, I didn't even get the chance to pay him back.
I'm going to leave for a while. I don't know when I'll be back, I just need some time...
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Post by Deleted on Nov 15, 2011 16:25:42 GMT -5
I'm so sorry for your loss. You were with him every moment and he knew your love when he needed it most.
~Kelli
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Post by Deleted on Nov 15, 2011 16:43:20 GMT -5
But you did pay him back - you stayed with him through it all. It's one of the hardest things a ferrent has to do, especially when we know they're in pain, but to do it and offer what comfort you can? He needed that, and he passed knowing how much you loved him. Don't dismiss that, for yourself, but also for him, because that's all that would have mattered to him.
Take the time to heal, so that you can enjoy your memories of Huck without pain. We'll be here when you feel ready to come back.
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Post by miamiferret2 on Nov 15, 2011 17:18:56 GMT -5
I am so sorry. I went through that on 9/26/10 with my 8 year old boy. still traumatized over what happened with him. He was with me for over 8 years. It was awful. What you have just described/gone through is why i HATE adrenal disease with EVERY fiber of my being!! You go 2-3 years treating it with melatonin, lupron, etc. and throughout that you kind of just push it out of your mind because they LOOK okay (on the outside) but the tumors are still there! then the meds for adrenal and prostate issues, etc. slowly stop working and towards the end it is a complete train wreck. males always get it the worse. i know that your heart hurts so much because you did not want to let him go. I went through the same thing. it is very very hard to deal with. you did the right thing by letting him rest. you did everything you could and you gave him a good home and lots of love. he is at rainbow bridge now. he is dancing and dooking again.
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Post by Sherry on Nov 15, 2011 17:30:16 GMT -5
Oh Yossarian- I am so very sorry take all the time you need- we'll be waiting when you are more up to it. I can't even begin to imagine being where you were last night. But Huck KNOWS how much you love him, never doubt that. You sat up with him all night, doing what you could. {{{{{hugs}}}}}
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Post by Deleted on Nov 15, 2011 17:33:05 GMT -5
I am so so sorry It's such a horrible thing to go through, but I have to agree that you did pay him back, you loved him and were there with him all through it. Now he's in ferret heaven watching over you and Blake with all his new ferret friends. I'm going to light a candle for you and your little one tonight. I'll be thinking about yall, hugs.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 15, 2011 17:53:24 GMT -5
Im so sorry to hear about your loss.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 15, 2011 23:58:04 GMT -5
Oh yossarian I am very sorry to hear of your loss But like everyone said...there is no doubt he knew how much you loved and cared for him, and you did pay him back -- by sitting with him through that night, doing what you could do to ease his discomfort, you helped him through the toughest part of his life as he helped you through yours. It's a special bond and so difficult when they cross the bridge. Last June I went through this with my absolute best friend, my 16-y/o cat Daisy. Stayed up and cuddled with her. Take the time you need. As said above, we will be here when you are ready to come back. I lit a candle for you and your wee one and am sending many many hugs and love and well wishes your way.
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Post by Sherry on Nov 16, 2011 0:45:52 GMT -5
I lit a candle for you and your wee one As have I.
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Post by Heather on Nov 16, 2011 1:37:12 GMT -5
I would love to say I don't understand the pain you've suffered but I do, my heart aches for you. Such pain, such giving, such grief, so loving...by his side, never alone, a heartkey shines bright for all to see. I will light a candle for your dear sweet baby boy. I will also light a candle for you, to help you find your way through your grief, To shine on your most dark hour. To help you see that the love you shared, though short was beautiful and will always shine brightly. If someone would have told me years ago, how much my heart would ache, how much despair I would feel as I felt one of these wee one's lives slip away I'm not sure I would have followed this path. I do not regret choosing or being chosen by the little ones. Perhaps, in time you too will understand, Huck's gift to you. As the candles burn down may your pain ease, may you remember the soft brush of a whisker and remember a love shared. Someday, hopefully soon, you will allow gentle memories to stir and then once again Huck will be with you. Until then, I hope you can find solace in that you gave love to a wee one who needed you and who loved you more than you ever can imagine. Gentle journey wee one, you were and are so loved. Goodbye, sweet wee Huck. ciao
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Post by Deleted on Nov 16, 2011 14:20:55 GMT -5
I am so very sorry...a candle and a prayer for your little one, and best wishes for you -- it takes time.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 16, 2011 15:01:58 GMT -5
so very sorry for your loss. Thank you for loving him and being with him at such a difficult time. (I'm afraid that I will soon be facing the same situation)
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Post by Deleted on Nov 16, 2011 18:43:23 GMT -5
I'm so sorry for your loss. Thank you for loving him through this stage.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 16, 2011 19:15:53 GMT -5
Yossarian, i am so sorry. he loves you and i will tell Rob to greet him at the rainbow bridge. All i wanted to do was die when Rob died. i did not get to spend the time with him. and the look on his face those last few days was so horrible. i found that all the people on the forum help in comforting with loss of your ferrets.
If you choose not to be on for a while, please feel better while you are gone. i am so sorry about your little guy. and i really do hope you feel better.
"you don't have a soul, you ARE a soul. you have a body"
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Post by shilohismygirl on Nov 17, 2011 7:23:33 GMT -5
Hun, I am so sorry for your loss. My soul cries for what you have gone through, for I know it is one of the hardest things in the whole world, the loss of a fur friend. Dook in peace, beautiful boy and know your daddy loved you very, very much.
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