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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 17:09:19 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Sept 16, 2011 17:09:19 GMT -5
This morning around 4:30 AM I found Anni having a seizure in her cage. I immediately thought she was having it due to her insulinoma, so I put some Karo syrup on her gums (I did this a couple times). About 45 minutes later she was just laying there, wasn't able to walk and had her eyes wide open, she would respond to me touching her though. I gave her some Prednisone and 15 minutes later, nothing changed. At this point I started calling emergency vets, all three I had on my emergency list said they no longer see exotics, including ferrets, the third one I called gave me a number to another ER vets office that does see ferrets. The only problem was, it would take me two hours to get there and by that time my vets office would be taking calls. While I was calling the ER vets Anni started seizing and screaming at the top of her lungs, I start freaking out and trying to comfort her. Then I called my vet and left her a message, lucky for me she called me back a few minutes later and told me she'd meet me at Animal House (a vets office about 45 minutes from me) so I took off out the door in my PJ's with Anni. When I got there, my vet hadn't arrived yet, but another vet I've taken animals to was there. He immediately took her back and came into the room a few minutes later. He said that it was neurological and wasn't insulinoma related, she was having cluster seizures, that she most likely had a brain tumor or her internal organs were shutting down, but the most likely suspect was a brain tumor. Then he said I needed to make a decision on whether to try to fight it or to put her to sleep. He started telling me the statistics and that she didn't even have a 20% chance of surviving, and if she did, she would not have lived long and would have been suffering. I was crying so much that they could hardly understand me, but I made the heartbreaking decision to put her to sleep, I couldn't stand to see her suffering like that anymore. He brought her into the room with me and gave her the shot, she immediately stopped screaming and relaxed. I picked her up and started petting her, talking to her, and loving on her. Right before she passed she licked my arm and I just started crying even more, I felt like my heart was breaking, but I knew she wasn't in pain anymore. I stayed in there a little longer after he said her heart had stopped beating just holding her and crying. I cried all the way home and went to give Pocket and Jessi lovings first thing when I got here. Jessi wouldn't let me touch her, she just kept smelling me and running around the cage smelling, then would run back and smell me again. A friend suggested that I show them the body so they would know what happened to their cage mate. So I did, Jessi just kept smelling of her and eventually she went and laid down. Pocket started smelling her then stuck his nose in her ear and started grooming her like he would all the time when he woke up or just when he felt like it. He then started smelling the towel and then would go back to her. After a few moments he also went and laid down. I buried her in the yard near my roses and put a little cross there. I'm going to order one of those stones with your pets name and everything on it. Afterwords I went to pet Jessi, she just laid there and looked at me, then turned away and curled up which is so not like her I just can't believe everything that's happened this morning She was my snuggle-butt, I'm going to miss her soooo much.
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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 17:32:21 GMT -5
Post by katt on Sept 16, 2011 17:32:21 GMT -5
I'm so sorry for your loss. You gave her a home, a healthier diet that helped her feel a little better at least, happiness, new friends, and most importantly of all Love. She'll be watching over you and waiting at the Rainbow Bridge where she is dooking and dancing, no longer in pain. :-*You made the right choice, the hardest choice to make but the most important one. Keep loving on your other 2, especially little Jessi. Hold them tight. I'd suggest hand feeding Jessi to make sure she is estig and give her extra loves. And don't forget the Rescue Remedy. I'm here if you need me, text, Skype, call, PM, whatever.
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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 17:41:45 GMT -5
Post by shilohismygirl on Sept 16, 2011 17:41:45 GMT -5
Oh my goodness! What a heartbreaking morning you've had. I am so sorry to hear all of this horrible news. Poor baby girl. Anni loved you though, and she knows you made the right decision for her, and is at the Rainbow Bridge thanking her wonderful, selfless momma! Pay extra attention to your other babies, you will be grieving together. If you need to, cry into their fur and they will understand and it will bring you closer. As Katt suggest, keep an eye out for Jessi and Pocket. I'll have you and your fuzz babies in my thoughts. Dook in peace, little lady!
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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 19:06:58 GMT -5
Post by Sherry on Sept 16, 2011 19:06:58 GMT -5
Oh, no- I am so very sorry As heartbreaking as the decision was that you made- it was the only one you could have done for her. And she thanked you for it. I'm really glad you were able to let the others visit with her body, so they at least know what happened to their friend. That is so very important. When you are more up to it, here's a thread on how to help your surviving fuzz deal with their grief as well: holisticferret60.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=support&action=display&thread=1064
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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 20:51:29 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Sept 16, 2011 20:51:29 GMT -5
Thanks everyone. She was such a sweetheart, she loved to cuddle and sleep on me while I watched tv or played on the computer. Her favorite spot was on my shoulder in my hair. I just want to go out to the cage and see her running over to me Poor Jessi is just laying there and not eating, I spooned a little to her but she wouldn't eat anymore, I think I might have to force feed her. Pocket has been laying with her and grooming her. She let me get her out and cuddle her, which is very rare, she's usually running trying to escape haha. I got her out and tried to get her to play, she crawled over to Anni's bag and laid down in it
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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 20:52:10 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Sept 16, 2011 20:52:10 GMT -5
Also I read that thread, will definitely help me out with the bubs.
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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 22:05:31 GMT -5
Post by Sherry on Sept 16, 2011 22:05:31 GMT -5
Just give her tons of attention right now, poor mite. She'll need the reassurance. And it will help you as well. {{{{{hugs}}}}}
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Anni
Sept 16, 2011 23:56:23 GMT -5
Post by acodlin on Sept 16, 2011 23:56:23 GMT -5
I'm so sorry for your loss DIP Anni
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Anni
Sept 17, 2011 0:16:48 GMT -5
Post by Heather on Sept 17, 2011 0:16:48 GMT -5
Oh, my how horrible. My heartbreaks for you and your little ones. I had been told that this was rare, that this was uncommon with ferrets and that my wee Zena was just an abnormality. I hoped that I would never see or hear of this again. Im so sorry that you had to experience this with your wee one. Love the wee ones left behind because they dont understand, their hearts are breaking just like yours. Poor wee Jessi, take care of her...her heart is calling her. Love her, tell her she has to stay here with you, tell her you need her now more than ever. Rescue remedy helps, dont let her sink into despair. You did what you had to, Ive seen what happens after those seizures....you did the right thing, the only thing, you gave the gift of release. The seizures only get worse, stronger, longer. The hardest and most loving thing you can do for another creature is to offer release from torment. Dont wonder even for a minute if you could have helped her after her seizures. There is no after when a brain tumour starts its damage. I have lit a travelling candle for your wee one, and another healing candle for you and the ones left behind. May it bring you all light and peace. Good luck. Gentle journey, little one...goodbye sweet Anni ciao
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Anni
Sept 17, 2011 1:03:37 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Sept 17, 2011 1:03:37 GMT -5
So sorry for your loss. The homeopathic ignatia (sp?) helps with grief - doesn't take it away, but helps you not to be overwhelmed by it. You can all take it, the more often (every 1/2 hour to begin with) the better.
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Anni
Sept 17, 2011 3:21:40 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Sept 17, 2011 3:21:40 GMT -5
Thank you everyone. I had Jessi out and was loving on her, she climbed up on my shoulder where Anni usually sat/laid and started shaking. When I put her back in the cage she went to each level smelling and crying then went up to the top level and climbed in Anni's bag Pocket laid with her and groomed her then they went to sleep. So sorry for your loss. The homeopathic ignatia (sp?) helps with grief - doesn't take it away, but helps you not to be overwhelmed by it. You can all take it, the more often (every 1/2 hour to begin with) the better. What is that? And thank you.
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Anni
Sept 17, 2011 9:01:48 GMT -5
Post by shilohismygirl on Sept 17, 2011 9:01:48 GMT -5
Pocket sounds like a gentle, sweet soul indeed to help Jessi in her moment of grief. Again, I am so sorry, and I am still thinking of you and yours and hoping that the grief can lessen for you and your sweeties soon. Rescue Remedy also works for you too, so if the grief gets too bad, you can also take it.
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Anni
Sept 17, 2011 11:40:26 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Sept 17, 2011 11:40:26 GMT -5
This made me cry, I am so sorry greenbean May she rest in peace...
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Anni
Sept 17, 2011 13:43:38 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Sept 17, 2011 13:43:38 GMT -5
Thanks guys, she's actually doing a lot better today. When I walk out there she jumps up and runs to the door like normal and has been eating on her own She's not as playful during playtime, but she did play for a few minutes. I gave them some Rescue Remedy. I think being with Pocket has helped a lot as well.
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Anni
Sept 17, 2011 14:01:07 GMT -5
Post by Sherry on Sept 17, 2011 14:01:07 GMT -5
Good. Keep an eye out for a while yet, though. It didn't really seem to hit Boris that Sinnead was truly gone for about 3 weeks. That's when the real problem set in for him. He started refusing food and/or attention. He even bit us to make us leave him alone when we tried to touch him. Vincent was paramount in pulling him through. Literally. Boris would try to just curl up and hide, but Vincent would literally drag him out by the scruff and start dancing around him, and on him. He did that until Boris started to come back to us.
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