Ainslie, my little girl (2011-2016)

[Riley]

[copied/pasted from a note i wrote day of her death]

16 August 2016

Final update:

Ainslie passed from this world to the next this afternoon, at 2:30pm. She wasn't doing well. She didn't eat.

So I had to let her go. She slept on a warming pad for about 30 minutes. I told her how much I loved her. How much i would miss her. And that it wasn't fair that i had to let her go. But let her go I did. Her two siblings will miss her very much. I brought her home. And let them see her. And it was hard to watch Numair nuzzling her, licking her, trying to get her to wake up. And seeing that realisation on his face that she wasn't coming back. And that look of betrayal.

Its the hardest thing i will ever have to live with. Resquiescat in Pace, my sweet girl. I don't know how i'll do without you.

♪ Close your eyes, lay your head down ♪
♪ Now it's time to sleep ♪
♪ May you find great adventure ♪
♪ As you lie and dream ♪
♪ If you're scared of the darkness ♪
♪ I will calm your fear ♪
♪ There's a light in the hallway ♪
♪ So you know I'm here ♪

♪ So count your blessings every day ♪
♪ It makes the monsters go away ♪
♪ And everything will be okay ♪
♪ You are not alone ♪
♪ You are right at home ♪
♪ Goodnight, goodnight ♪

♪ You won't need me forever ♪
♪ But I'll still be here ♪
♪ For we all have our nightmares ♪
♪ Even me, my dear ♪
♪ ♪ From now on, if you need me ♪
♪ You can sing this song ♪
♪ There's a light in the hallway ♪
♪ Burning all night long ♪

♪ So count your blessings every day ♪
♪ It makes the monsters go away ♪
♪ And everything will be okay ♪
♪ You are not alone ♪
♪ You are right at home ♪
♪ Goodnight, goodnight ♪
♪ Goodnight, goodnight ♪

- "Light in the Hallway", Pentatonix

[Riley]

its been nearly a month. i cant even listen to that song anymore. i played it in the car right before i walked into the vet that day. i dont think i could ever be able to play that song. in a sense i feel like i failed her.

[Sherry]

We all here truly understand. The main song so hard here is Lucretia My Reflection. Our one wee girls name was Lucrezia