Baby Beo

[natalieoh]

We lost our little angel today just a few weeks before his second birthday. He had been sick since September, but between different medications (we never figured out what was wrong with him other than that one lung had barely any air intake) had managed to do okay until this week. He started becoming very tired, laying flat constantly with his shoulders up propping him up off his chest slightly. He'd move a few feet, then lay flat again. A few days later he stopped being able to really use his legs, they collapsed underneath him and each time he attempted to move to another spot he would fall over. I took a day off from work this week to be able to stay home with him, worried sick. He was still eating, so I had hoped he might power through it with a change in his medication. Today while I was home with him, he could not get comfortable and was constantly moving around, falling over each time, completely weak. I cried my eyes out over and over, begging him to make it to Monday when he had an appointment to drain the fluid from around his lung, until a few hours passed and I realized I couldn't watch him suffer like this for another two days. I called my husband crying and asked him to come home from work early. We took him to the vet who has done EVERYTHING for us (and such much more) with Beo. She too looked absolutely miserable about this. We let Beo's brother Ody come along so he would understand what happened. Beo looked so uncomfortable and tired and I knew that it was time, no matter how impossible of a decision this was. I have never loved an animal like I have Beo. I have never lost an animal either. This is hands down the most horrible I have ever felt, and I miss him so dearly. Ody is also grieving, and has slept since we got home, even letting us cuddle him while he sleeps which is very uncharacteristic of him..
I love you Beo, and I will never ever let a day go by without thinking of your sweet little hops, your cuddles, your kisses. You were everything I ever wanted or could have hoped for in a pet, you were always my best friend, you were always so wonderfully curious and beautiful and sweet. I love you my cinnamon boy. Dook in peace baby boy; I will always keep you in my heart.

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I am so sorry that you lost your little guy at such an early age. It just doesn't seem fair that they can get sick so young.You did the right thing by putting him to sleep as you described he was suffering so. I hope one day you can remember him with more smiles than tears. DIP little angel

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My deepest sympathy on the loss of your darling little Beo.

That was a lovely tribute to him.
Words cannot help you with your grief and I can only hope that time will allow you to remember Beo with more smiles than tears.
I understand completely your grief and loss. When you say that Hands down it was the most horrible thing you have ever felt, that was exactly how I felt upon losing my Ponce.

Please give Ody a special hug. I hope you all find some comfort to give to each other during this terrible time.

DIP sweet little Beo. You will live forever in your family's heart.

[natalieoh]

It does feel very unfair that he was still so young.
Thank you both so much.

[Heather]

How heartbreaking Without proper diagnosis you may never know but the symptoms are that of JL. It's a brutal disease that robs only babies and the very young. It's hearbreaking.
A travelling candle is lit to guide little paws on their next great adventure. There is no fear, or pain now. Dance with the fae and swim in the bubbling springs with many, many friends. Fly high and free little shooting star, visit often
ciao

[mjbez]

I am so sorry for your loss. Remember that even though his life was short, he was so dearly loved that even in his two years he experienced a lifetime of love and happiness. DIP Beo.

[natalieoh]

Heather, unfortunately that was the second provided diagnosis back in September (the first was penumonia), and we did an ultrasound to confirm, which showed no mass. Later on they performed an ultrasound-guided aspiration, in which they they only found fluid indicating inflammation. The pathologists were stumped. Every test we ran only left us with more questions. We considered so many things and so much had been ruled out, but his problem stayed and ultimately took him from us.
Thank you all so much for your kind words. I miss him terribly.

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I'm sorry to hear that Beo has gone dook in peace little dude

[Deleted]

So sorry your little one was taken from you so young.
DIP Beo.

Thinking of you at this sad time. I hope time will help heal the hole he has left.

[Thérèse]

Condolences on Beo's passing. I know how hard you searched to try and find answers to help your beloved fuzz. It really is a great gift of love to recognise that the time has come and to let go one you have fought so long for. You are in my thoughts and I hope that the precious gift of your memories of Beo will help bring you solace.

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So very sorry DIP little Beo!

[natalieoh]

I still miss him so much, more than a year later. His birthday is coming up February 9th and I just had to think how lucky I was to get to have him. I promised him I would never go a day without thinking about him and I haven't, except one day when we traveled--but lo and behold I dreamt about him that night. My brain wasn't about to let me break my promise.
I love you and miss you so much little one!
Sorry for bringing out this very old post but I had to put these thoughts somewhere.

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never apologize, you are allowed to grieve. He will always be with you in your heart. ❤️