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Post by lyles on Nov 18, 2015 1:44:44 GMT -5
After losing my forst 2, i rescued 3 pairs of boys in about 6 months and 2 more girls within a year. I ended up with 8 ferrets and a ferret nation cage for $50 REHOMING FEE FOR ONE PAIR. i went a bit nuts trying to make up for feeling so guilty. If I told you all of my story you'd think I was the bad ferrent. The same thing happened to me, though I didn't get as many at one time. When my first two died from inexperience I quickly bought two more to cover from the guilt. I didn't learn anything new, everything was hastened in an attempt to fill the void the previous ones left. Then they died and I felt so bad I gave up ferreting for a few years until I felt so depressed being ferretless I bought Sandy. That was when I found this forum for the first time. I was still inexperienced but I started to learn then. Now I know that Sandy died because I tried to feed her after she had imprinted (which explained the wasting away) I blamed my mother for that while she stayed with me because she sheds her hair worse than anything I know! It was so gross I would find her hair in my food, clothes it would even just end up in my mouth out of nowhere  . Then there was Crystal, and finally Nei and Alice. I come to realize that once you become a ferrant, it becomes a part of your being, impossible to not have a ferret after the fact. |
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Post by Deleted on Nov 18, 2015 9:20:26 GMT -5
You can't blame yourself for what happened, it was an accident and they do happen. Just remember the guilt you feel now is proportional to the love you felt for Ash, eventually that guilt will subside but the love will endure as long as you remember the good times and good life you gave him.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 20, 2015 13:05:13 GMT -5
Thank you again, everyone.
I'm trying my best to remember my time with Ash. I have to keep myself going for my little Ivy and Lily especially; she's showing signs of stress since his death.
I've gotten in contact with a grief counsellor, hoping it'll help me cope with the guilt and get moving forward. I'll never forget him, I love him dearly, but I can't let what I did tarnish his memory. I must learn from all my mistakes, small or unforgivably enormous, and always be a better ferrent.
The support of everyone here has helped more than I can express. I hate to think of what state I'd be in if not for you all. Thank you, truly.
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