Post by Deleted on Oct 28, 2014 22:44:29 GMT -5
When you went off the deep end?
I've just realized, I probably had a nervous breakdown about 20 minutes ago... LOL
Already was a bad day, didn't feel very well and the ferrets made a mess repeatedly and etc. But tonight I made fresh soup, and prepared everything and added CGH slivers and fed Marcie first. She was being SUCH a pain, she didn't want to eat the slivers, I tried and tried and ended up having raw stains all over her new, clean bedding. So after cleaning that and giving Juliet her food, Marcie was mad and started digging her litter out of her box. Pretty mad, I took the litter box out and pulled the blanket and the litter slung all over everything. Heavily sighing, I fixed everything back up and proceeded to feed Juliet, she didn't want the slivers, so I sat her in my lap and spoon fed them to her. She ate some, and kept spitting the others out, so I left the bowl in the cage and got Caillou out, by then Marcie was digging in the litter again and messing up her entire cage, giving up on her and just focusing on Caillou I put his bowl in front of him and hold the spoon up since he thinks even the food he has eaten for weeks is poison at first, he took a lick, but didn't want it. Tried again, he didnt want it, pushed the spoon up to his mouth so he would taste it, he didn't want it and was trying to run away. Marcie was digging, he was refusing to eat, and Juliet had just pooped in the cage floor, I tried AGAIN with Caillou, he spit it out all over me. I snapped, said "FINE, STARVE THEN!", slammed the cage doors shut and angrily cleaned up the litter off my floor. Every time I saw them I got mad, so I covered the cage with a blanket. Yes, I literally made it to where I couldn't see them, I ran around the house like a headless chicken trying to clean their mess and had to get their food ready to thaw for tomorrow, came back to my room and heard more litter box digging from both of them, and am pretty sure Caillou has gotten his soup everywhere, I'm too afraid to look.
I had never been so mad at them before, I feel bad now, but I had to rant to calm down or else I would've started on my dog for throwing up on my rug in the same 10 minutes all of that was happening.
So... I had a breakdown, and took it out on my babies, I apologized, but I'm still upset. I just wanted them to eat their food.... that's it, I just wish they would eat their food, they're so freaking picky, took 2 months to eat dime sized slivers and they still spit them out... AGH, I just lost my patience I guess. Literally got so mad, over food. I'm mostly just disappointed, in myself too, I feel like a failure with them, like they should be further along in their diet and I got busy with family stuff and stopped trying hard, and now they're stuck on this soup, that Caillou hates, he hates everything. And not to mention, I have to go and buy more of his gingivitis medicine because he has to take it for 4 more days and I only have enough for 1 more dose. I'm sure they said 10 days, tomorrow is 1 week, I don't know, I'll call in the morning I guess... and Juliet is still untreated for Adrenal and it's my fault too because I'm poor and don't have the $200+ and have to borrow that money too and they haven't called for my credit card info and I was supposed to call and ask why but now Juliet is worse and she's scratching everywhere and her hair is thinning on her shoulder blades and I don't know what to do. It's a big mess, it's just a big mess and I've been trying not to think about it... just needed to rant and get it out.
Caillou is eating his food, everyone. He's eating, just now. REALLY?
* laughs and cries at same time*
Wait, no, he's now messing up his cage too. I need headphones and psychotherapy at this point. You know what though, I still love them... dangit I love them so much.
Rant is over, if you'll excuse me I'm going to go eat some laffy taffy and watch White Chicks until I feel better. Thank you for listening everyone, if you managed to read all of that. And I hope you found much laughter in my craziness... LOL
I've just realized, I probably had a nervous breakdown about 20 minutes ago... LOL
Already was a bad day, didn't feel very well and the ferrets made a mess repeatedly and etc. But tonight I made fresh soup, and prepared everything and added CGH slivers and fed Marcie first. She was being SUCH a pain, she didn't want to eat the slivers, I tried and tried and ended up having raw stains all over her new, clean bedding. So after cleaning that and giving Juliet her food, Marcie was mad and started digging her litter out of her box. Pretty mad, I took the litter box out and pulled the blanket and the litter slung all over everything. Heavily sighing, I fixed everything back up and proceeded to feed Juliet, she didn't want the slivers, so I sat her in my lap and spoon fed them to her. She ate some, and kept spitting the others out, so I left the bowl in the cage and got Caillou out, by then Marcie was digging in the litter again and messing up her entire cage, giving up on her and just focusing on Caillou I put his bowl in front of him and hold the spoon up since he thinks even the food he has eaten for weeks is poison at first, he took a lick, but didn't want it. Tried again, he didnt want it, pushed the spoon up to his mouth so he would taste it, he didn't want it and was trying to run away. Marcie was digging, he was refusing to eat, and Juliet had just pooped in the cage floor, I tried AGAIN with Caillou, he spit it out all over me. I snapped, said "FINE, STARVE THEN!", slammed the cage doors shut and angrily cleaned up the litter off my floor. Every time I saw them I got mad, so I covered the cage with a blanket. Yes, I literally made it to where I couldn't see them, I ran around the house like a headless chicken trying to clean their mess and had to get their food ready to thaw for tomorrow, came back to my room and heard more litter box digging from both of them, and am pretty sure Caillou has gotten his soup everywhere, I'm too afraid to look.
I had never been so mad at them before, I feel bad now, but I had to rant to calm down or else I would've started on my dog for throwing up on my rug in the same 10 minutes all of that was happening.
So... I had a breakdown, and took it out on my babies, I apologized, but I'm still upset. I just wanted them to eat their food.... that's it, I just wish they would eat their food, they're so freaking picky, took 2 months to eat dime sized slivers and they still spit them out... AGH, I just lost my patience I guess. Literally got so mad, over food. I'm mostly just disappointed, in myself too, I feel like a failure with them, like they should be further along in their diet and I got busy with family stuff and stopped trying hard, and now they're stuck on this soup, that Caillou hates, he hates everything. And not to mention, I have to go and buy more of his gingivitis medicine because he has to take it for 4 more days and I only have enough for 1 more dose. I'm sure they said 10 days, tomorrow is 1 week, I don't know, I'll call in the morning I guess... and Juliet is still untreated for Adrenal and it's my fault too because I'm poor and don't have the $200+ and have to borrow that money too and they haven't called for my credit card info and I was supposed to call and ask why but now Juliet is worse and she's scratching everywhere and her hair is thinning on her shoulder blades and I don't know what to do. It's a big mess, it's just a big mess and I've been trying not to think about it... just needed to rant and get it out.
Caillou is eating his food, everyone. He's eating, just now. REALLY?
* laughs and cries at same time*Wait, no, he's now messing up his cage too. I need headphones and psychotherapy at this point. You know what though, I still love them... dangit I love them so much.
Rant is over, if you'll excuse me I'm going to go eat some laffy taffy and watch White Chicks until I feel better. Thank you for listening everyone, if you managed to read all of that. And I hope you found much laughter in my craziness... LOL
